Warning: excessive use of the word shit, but most of you don't give a shit.

Remember a journal I posted a while ago where I was ranting about my relationshits? (pun intended)

Well, 
GUESS WHIS BACK
BACK AGAIN
THIS ONE CUTE GUY IS BACK
TELL A FRIEND AND I WILL F**KING MURDER YOU.

Here's the crap about my relationshit, it's a bit dated (no pun intended, because it's about how I can't get a date for shit) but if you read it, you'll have a better understanding. Of course you don't have to, but whatever. [link]

Anyway, so I just learned my school is doing a junior prom.

As if I didn't have enough shit on my plate which I'll to later.

And as everyone knows its pretty crappy to go to prom without a date. It's shit.

So as of now, I don't think anyone will be asking me since I'm that one girl who, along with most of her friends, has been single her whole life. Mind you I'm 13 and I've seen some shit, man. So I know a few people who are going out. But not many since I'm treated like shit and no one ever tells me any gossip whatsoever. So it has to be obvious or have one of my friends talking about it for me to know, and my friends aren't gossip and Facebook kind of people. Neither am I, but I'd still like to know SOME stuff. 

But anyway, dates DO exist. And I want one. But the guy I like probably hates me because all of his friends are assholes. I can name 3 assholes that are his friends right this second if I wanted to. One of his closest friends is the biggest asshole ever, mind you none of my friends have the guts to stick up for ANYONE, not even themselves. It's the way the majority of them are. Others just never see it happening. One of my friends who actually sticks up for people did, but that's about it. My friends aren't bad people, they just don't defend themselves or others. Actually, one of the queen bitches at our school told them to throw out her trash and they did. Because they didn't want "trouble". And I got kinda pissed at them, seeing as I'm a kind of girl who slapped one of those queen bitches into next Tuesday when she slapped me and called me a whore.

So this guy's friends are asses. We have that down. And hearing nothing but bad things about me from them, I wouldn't find it hard to believe that it's kinda rubbing off on him. So anyway, ever since he found out I like him, he's been avoiding me like a poison. Now reallllllly late, like the last week of, 7th grade and early 8th grade is acceptable behavior, but now if I sit down within a ten-foot radius, he gets up and leaves with his friends. 

So because I really can't get that close to him because he's already with his friends (or the queen bitches) 24/7, I'm just gonna leave a note in his locker and forget it. If he by a one in 1,385 chance wants to go to the dance with me he'll leave a note in MY locker, but other than that I'm expecting a no. Not even getting my hopes up at all. If he says no, I'll know for sure, and I'll end it there. Wait until 9th grade when I'm at the same school I'm at now and stuck in until 12th grade, and wait for the new people to come into the school. One of them might be enough of an idiot to not avoid me like toxic material. Who knows.

That and what the hell am I gonna do at prom without a date. 

WHAT.

And then I have finals.

Which go a little something like this.

8th Grade English Final: June 6th, 8:30 AM
8th Grade Math Final: June 6th, 10:30 AM
8th Grade American History Final: June 7th, 8:30 AM
French 1B Final: June 7th, 10:30 AM
8th Grade Earth Science Final: June 8th, 8:30 AM

I'm gonna go cry like a fatass now.

But I'm in study hall...

Whatever.